Daughter: "Mom, can I go to the game?"
Mom: "What time is the game?"
Mom: "It's 4:55 and I just got off of work. Won't be home until 5:30 and we really don't have the money right now."
Daughter: "But mom, I missed the last two weeks of games"
Mom: "Honey, they were away games"
Daughter: "Well, can I go?"
Mom: "No, not tonight...we have so much going on tonight, we are just going to have to pass."
Within 15 minutes, my daughter has called me and advises me that she has gathered up 300 pennies so she can pay to go to the game. I begin to explain to her about why my/our schedule is so hectic tonight that she's not going to be able to go. At that point she will not keep her mouth shut so I can calmly explain. So, I do the awful thing and hung up on her. I'm tired of the whining, I'm tired of the attitude, I'm tired of the disobeying and trying to beg me into changing my mind!! When I got home at 5:45, she was still trying to argue with me and talk me into letting her go. I stood my ground, got a LOT firm with her and she stormed off to her room!
The next few minutes was spent getting supper together, in the oven and to the table, listening to doors slam and my daughter crying, with changing my clothes in the midst of all of that (of course!). I had 1 hour from the time I stepped into the house until I needed to leave to go to a planning meeting for our church's Christmas party. Can I do it? I am proud to admit that I did. Was I exhausted? ABSOLUTELY! I didn't want to be there at the meeting but I felt I had an obligation to finish a project and I was going to drag myself out the door, get into my car and drive back into Owasso. Along with all of the chaos, supper, and meeting, my youngest also had a project that was due. A lovely leaf collection. We had gotten everything together two days before & then couldn't do it Wedneseday night because of church. Miss Procrastination prevailed and Miss Stay-Up-And-Get-It-Finished accomplished the task!! After the meeting I came home to finalize the project. My son was already griping about being tired. I figured it would be better to send him off to bed and not to have to hear his whining, so that's exactly what I did! Terrible, I know!!
I am determined to beat this schedule/moody monster that lives in my mind and my household lately!! Dear God, give me the strength to accomplish what I NEED to accomplish and the ability to let things go when I'm not able to accomplish it. I'm strung out too thin lately. This morning was no exception. Daughter had yet another meltdown! Is the PMS time upon us??? OH Dear Lord!!! I have been awaiting this moment, not anticipating but waiting! As the day has progressed, I've not felt the best. I'm beginning to feel warm to the touch and not able to stay warm in my office. I'm a little concerned about that! My daughter had flu symptoms on Monday and Tuesday so we've been exposed to something. The meds are there if I need them.
With all of that ranting & raving about a whole lotta hullabaloo in our home, I do hope the peace of the Lord is present in your homes and families! I am thankful for the friends I can rely on and the blogs I can read to get me through!! I'm trying to get a little more candid. I'm not the type to want others to see me hurting but I've realized I have been wearing a mask for a large majority of my entire life. I guess it's time to get real people! More good whining to come!! Stay tuned....... CHOW!