April 28, 2009

Too Many Things Going On

I was trying desperately yesterday to blog about our weekend and my daughter's fear factor birthday party. No such luck!! My computer kept doing funny things and I couldn't get it done. I will have to try again once I get home. I could do it from work but, I didn't bring the pics with me. Got to have the pics for that one!! I stayed home all day yesterday. My daugher had an accident with the swingset late Sunday afternoon. Her toe got chopped up a little. You know how it is...metal is swinging too high...pole jumps up in the air...Hannah's toe goes under the HOLLOW pole before it lands...yeah, you can fill in the rest!! Needless to say, she was in a lot of pain for a short period of time. Urgent care was closed when it happened on Sunday so I chose to wait until Monday. I knew she would have to get a tetanus shot and the Dr. would want her on antibiotics. We did both of that plus got an x-ray. Nothing is broken but it looks like she will lose her toenail. She's much better today. Went to school like nothing had ever happened. I keep telling her to be careful and don't let anyone step on her toe...."Gosh Mom" is all I get from her when I say it. I guess I need to quit worrying and let her deal with it when OR if it happens. This week is proving to be very busy. I got soooo much accomplished in the house yesterday. It's about time!!! My house has been so severely neglected for way tooo long! I'm not done but feel so much better about what is done. My plans are to get the pics posted tonight on this blog so you all can see the LOVELY pictures!!

April 23, 2009

Age, Weight Gain and No Thyroid

See the title?? That's an elixir for feeling HUGE!!! When they found the tumor on my thyroid about 2 years ago, I couldn't wait for the Dr's to get it out of my body. Now looking back on it, I don't know if I made the right decision. I had never had a DIAGNOSED thyroid problem but have always struggled with fatigue since I was very young. Once they took my thyroid out and had it looked at by a pathologist, I was told I had a very bad diseased thyroid. Now, I am finding myself struggling with getting the medication regulated, weight gain and just feeling bad! SO FRUSTRATING!!!! If I would've just waited and watched the tumor for a while longer would I have been OK with my thyroid still in? Who knows?? Obviously it's too late to do anything about it now but, this weight issue is really beginning to take a toll on me!! This is the first season I have pulled out my clothes for the season and they not fit. I am finding myself leaving the house for things feeling so terribly uncomfortable that I will literally walk into a favorite store of mine and buy a larger outfit just so I can change in their dressing rooms and continue on to where I am going. That's pretty pitiful! Summertime is turning into a drag for me. The clothes don't cover as much. I have some days where I go through the day feeling normal (if there is a normal) and then others where everything I eat makes me expande every minute of the day!! Today is obviously one of those days for me. I have been working out by walking at lunch time 4.5 miles. When I get home and the kids have gone to bed, I will workout with my Wii Fit for about a 45 minutes to an hour. Why can't I see results?? The Wii Fit tracks my weight and daily it goes up another pound or two. Dear Lord, what is happening to me??? I hate feeling this way! I am to the point of going & digging into stupid diet pills. Is there a miracle drug out there?? NO!! I know that. I'm not stupid! My problem is having a microwave attitude! When I work out for one or two days, I expect myself to have dropped 25 lbs. Yes, aren't we all like that?? Maybe it's my anxious ways. I just get so discouraged not seeing any type of progress. Enough of my ramblings. Needless to say because of all of the late night working out, I am so tired during the day. I need to learn how to work it in earlier in the day!! Love to all!

April 22, 2009

Life Coming At Ya Fast!

Ever wonder why life has to be so difficult at times? Growing, reshaping, learning, and the list can go on and on! I am having a time right now in my life where I am feeling the earth underneath me shake and it's just a matter of time before it splits wide open and takes me under!
My spirit right now senses that movement under my feet. I have some decisions to make. Am I going to run as fast as my feet will carry me to my Father and allow him to shelter me from this time in my life OR am I going to stay where I am, shocked by the pressures that are enveloping me? The most sensible choice as a Christian is RUN!!!!!!! Sometimes when you're going through it your senses are just kind of out of sort & obvious doesn't make sense. OR maybe it's just a stubborness that is holding you over the openness in the ground. Does our humaness truly think the opening is going to stop just because we stand there and stare at it in awe? The forces behind that are far greater than we are!
Have you ever thought of what causes an earthquake? I have. I actually looked it up. Henry Reid (don't know if he was a geologist or a scientist) was studying the earthquake of San Fransisco of 1906. He stated "an earthquake is the huge amount of energy released when accumulated strain causes a fault to rupture."
WOW did that speak to me! Accumulated strain from energy released!! Does that not sound like a weight being carried around?? All I could picture was a man holding a bolder on his back. I think you all have seen that picture. Such a simple solution to that weight. Why do we have to make things so difficult? Things that are held in our arms and cradled by us can simply be taken to our Father. He doesn't ask questions, he just takes them!! WOW! What about that concept is so difficult for us to understand?
While thinking about the times in our lives, my mind always goes to Ecclesiastes 3:1-8:
1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
How much more appropriate can it get than that? This reminds us that there are always going to be seasons in our lives. Sometimes we are going to have peace. Sometimes we are going to hurt. Sometimes we are going to grow. Sometimes we are going to fail. BUT at ALL times we know that we have a Heavenly Father who is consistent. Our lives, as inconsistent as they are, can get us on a roller coaster of emotions. Knowing we have a ROCK to run to is such security.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful worldas it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things rightif I surrender to His Will;That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with HimForever in the next.Amen. --Reinhold Niebuhr Trust in the LORD with all your heartand lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him,and he will direct your paths. Proverbs 3, 5-6
Abba Father, be with all who are struggling right now. Let the peace of your presence and the understanding of your way be a light in their life! AMEN

April 21, 2009

What a wonderful way to get me rolling again on my blog!! My friend Nicole has posted this on her blog. I was one of the first few to post a comment and be part of this blog pay it forward movement. What a better thing than to think of your friends throughout the year and let God guide and lead you. I am presently in a period in my life where I am being stretched and molded. It doesn't feel good at times! I want to be a blessing to someone. Be the first 5 to leave a comment on my blog letting me know you want to participate in this and I will be sending you something special sometime during the year. Please post a comment and let me include you in this fabulous idea! If you are one of the first five to leave a comment, the only thing I ask is that you post this on your blog and continue the pay it forward movement! AND if you are one of the top five, please honor your promise on fulfilling your duty as a pay it forward ambassador. I can't wait to see who is going to comment. Don't know if I will have five! Have a blessed day!