When I got home and went to bed, I couldn't shut my mind off. I've been doing a lot of soul searching recently & asking questions to myself. One question that pops up in my head over and over is Why do you attend the church you attend? Why that one? Why not another one?? What made you choose to go here? What do you get out of it? Do you go for yourself? Do you go for others? A lot of questions have just been swirling through my head. I want a deeper walk with God and I'm beginning to question everything I do in my life. Why do I do that? What purpose does it serve in my life?
Anyway, no worries...I'm not backsliding or not going to attend church. I'm just trying to understand why I do what I do. I want more!!!!! I want more of God. I want more depth. I want more ministry. My ground is shaking and with the down time (meaning no children talking in my ear all evening) that I have, I have a LOT of time to dwell on these things.
After leaving bunco and settling in for rest, I found myself wondering about other people with these same questions. Why do you attend church where you attend?? Is it because of family? Is it for a position? Is it because that's where you went all of your life? Just curious.....it would be very interesting for me to hear from others on this issue. Like I said...JUST CURIOUS!! Trying to think through some things.
Sorry to ramble. I'm taking an English Comp II and our exercise this week was freestyle writing. That's when you just write for 5-10 minutes and never stop writing. If you get stumped just write down that you don't know what else to say & go on with another thought. It's actually been kind of a nice thing for me to discover. I did that last night in my head as I was trying to go to sleep...Thus all the questions.
Anyway, what's ya'lls take on this? WHY do we go??