April 23, 2009
Age, Weight Gain and No Thyroid
See the title?? That's an elixir for feeling HUGE!!! When they found the tumor on my thyroid about 2 years ago, I couldn't wait for the Dr's to get it out of my body. Now looking back on it, I don't know if I made the right decision. I had never had a DIAGNOSED thyroid problem but have always struggled with fatigue since I was very young. Once they took my thyroid out and had it looked at by a pathologist, I was told I had a very bad diseased thyroid. Now, I am finding myself struggling with getting the medication regulated, weight gain and just feeling bad! SO FRUSTRATING!!!! If I would've just waited and watched the tumor for a while longer would I have been OK with my thyroid still in? Who knows?? Obviously it's too late to do anything about it now but, this weight issue is really beginning to take a toll on me!! This is the first season I have pulled out my clothes for the season and they not fit. I am finding myself leaving the house for things feeling so terribly uncomfortable that I will literally walk into a favorite store of mine and buy a larger outfit just so I can change in their dressing rooms and continue on to where I am going. That's pretty pitiful! Summertime is turning into a drag for me. The clothes don't cover as much. I have some days where I go through the day feeling normal (if there is a normal) and then others where everything I eat makes me expande every minute of the day!! Today is obviously one of those days for me. I have been working out by walking at lunch time 4.5 miles. When I get home and the kids have gone to bed, I will workout with my Wii Fit for about a 45 minutes to an hour. Why can't I see results?? The Wii Fit tracks my weight and daily it goes up another pound or two. Dear Lord, what is happening to me??? I hate feeling this way! I am to the point of going & digging into stupid diet pills. Is there a miracle drug out there?? NO!! I know that. I'm not stupid! My problem is having a microwave attitude! When I work out for one or two days, I expect myself to have dropped 25 lbs. Yes, aren't we all like that?? Maybe it's my anxious ways. I just get so discouraged not seeing any type of progress. Enough of my ramblings. Needless to say because of all of the late night working out, I am so tired during the day. I need to learn how to work it in earlier in the day!! Love to all!